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Day 37 – Crampy

Thursday, February 25th, 2010
Half Moon Pose Back Bend From 2/22

Half Moon Pose Back Bend From 2/22

Maybe I should change the title of this post to “crappy” rather than “crampy”.  It’s that time of the month again, so I have cramps, but not nearly as bad as last month.  In fact, ever since I got off birth control (the reason I got on it was for cramps) for Graves Disease, I end up having bad cramps every other period and then regular cramps the other periods. 

I actually wondered if a bloated abdomen was the reason I struggled to get deeper into postures yesterday.

Today’s pose is the half moon back bend, which I seem to be advancing in.  If it weren’t for the Bikram’s Beginning Yoga Class (Second Edtion) I wouldn’t be able to know how far to go in this posture to make it one of the advanced yoga positions, as the instructors don’t really talk about it and other people in the class don’t seem to go as far…but believe me you, they go further in other postures than I do!

Half Moon Pose - Back Bend on 2/22

Half Moon Pose - Back Bend on 2/22

I am getting frustrated about this weight loss thing.  It actually consumed most of my thoughts today in class, other than watching the new guy.  I am curious about watching new people (who are in the class but have never taken a class with Bikram yoga poses in it) and seeing what they instinctually do wrong.  It is curious and makes me wonder if the instruction can be improved to the point where they don’t do that.  Also makes me wonder if the consistent wrong mistakes that new folks make getting into the postures is an American thing (like how we are trained to do things in gym class) or if new yogis across the board have this problem.  Anyway, I digress.  (BTW, “I digress” is one of my favorite sayings when other people say it, but I think that is the first time I have actually used it, other than by talking to myself for practice).

Half Moon Pose Back Bend 1/8/10

Half Moon Pose Back Bend 1/8/10

So back to my frustration about the weight loss thing.  I think my ideal weight according to the doctors and what not is 165 lbs.  Hmmm.  I’m 220 lbs., well, the last time I weighed myself.  I am not sure what the point is in weighing myself again right now as visually, I could bet you that the scale hasn’t changed.  This astonishes me because when I think back to a year ago, I was eating so many sweets and only exercising 3 times a week with a personal trainer and barely breaking a sweat.

Now I am busting my balls (okay, I don’t have balls, but that is a fun saying, so I must use it) 5 days a week…and not eating as many sweets…I thought this fat shit would fall off of me.  Then I think, well, it took me 8 years to pack this shit on, so if I get rid of it in 8 months, then I get an “atta girl”.

Namaste.